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Slap yourselves.

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 15:21:10 GMT

Hands up you people who have a major problem keeping your a** glued to your study chair.
Give yourself a slap.
I deserve one too.
Hahaha.

Omg the exams have made me so random, to the point where I'm getting kooky /:

At this time next week, I'll be partying like a rockstar (((((:
So whoever else wants to play (as in the club), see u then!

Oh and omg I'm so on about going to the gym and working out already.
Victoria, will you please tell me your Secret?

Omg, trailers for Gossip Girl's upcoming season is making me oh-so-excited.
Ok, I sound like a hugea** bimbo in this post.
Hahaha.

Ok, goodbye.

Decision made.

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 16:11:05 GMT

After months of thinking this through, I've decided to forgo IVP this season.
I guess I don't want to jump into it just for the sake of being there to compete.
My foot's not exactly ready for intensive training for IVP which is only less than a couple of months away.
I need to regain strength and confidence first.
Anyway, the doctor's already said to take it slow and gradually.
I don't wanna jump the gun for the sake of this year's IVP and then suffer from another layoff in next year's season.

So yeah.
After exams, it's back to the gym for some hardcore strengthening.
And doing camps again (ah! the fun and the extra moolah!).
And hanging out with friends.
And maybe going away on a much needed vacay.
And I'll be back next season, stronger than ever.

Why does school always feel like a battlefield?

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 12:44:32 GMT

Exams start tomorrow!!!!
And sociology's up first.

2 more weeks, N.
Then it's vacays
I so cannot wait, omg.
Planning to make a trip up to KL on my own and crash at Glenmarie.
Chillax and unwind by the pool everyday in my bikini with my laptop and cigarettes, getting a nice bronzed tan, a massage, manicures and pedicures, shopping and pigging out.
Sounds awesome eh.
But then again, there's training for IVP, which I haven't exactly decided on.
K, I'll decide soon.
Meanwhile, train hard Team NYP.
Hahaha.

Back to the books.
Bye.

So so hard.

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 05:05:54 GMT

Srsly, this is way worse than sitting for the A levels.
If not for my scholarship, I'd have dropped out.
Do something more fun like media&communications or marketing&advertising.
And get invited to all the coolest parties.
I guess I've kinda lost interest in Physiotherapy 'cause I've lost interest in track and basically, sports.
Something's just so wrong with me these days.
I used to hate partying 'cause I didn't want it to affect my training and all.
But now, I'd skip training just so that I won't be too tired to party the night away.
And I really don't get how I could even party the night before my last training for a meet.
I'm srsly going crazy.

I hate school I swear.
And I don't even feel like training for IVP.
I'm a whole second off my personal best.
Maybe I should just give up the spot to those who really want it.
Fuck.

I'm so sure.

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 05:06:39 GMT

I don't like your ego and how you pretend to know everything when really, you don't.
I don't like how you act like you're the always the best and you put everyone else down.
I don't like how you like to take charge of everything and throw your weight around.
I don't like you pulling my best friend away to have heart-to-hearts with her about me.
I don't like how you treat your friends, having heart-to-hearts and then you turn into a hypocrite and say you don't like their lifestyle and the way they live behind their backs.
I don't like how you preach about religion when it comes to homosexuality, yet you drink.
I don't like how you think that your gender is superior over mine.
I don't like how you think that you're the only one who can protect me - please, get a life.
I don't like your over-sensitivity - stop being such a pussy.

I can think of a dozen more but I'm trying to refrain from getting into ultimate bitch mode.
Yeah, this is kinda just the beginning.
Haha it's funny 'cause I know you're not gonna read this.
But I just needed to get all this shit out of my system.
Wow am I so glad I'm over you.
Actually I don't know if I was really that into you in the first place.
I think you were just an experiment to see if I could handle a straight relationship.
And then I realised I'm gay to the bone.
Hahaha.

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH, SINGAPORE!

Random thoughts.

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 13:47:32 GMT

I felt pretty much detached yesterday.
And I guess I am quite sad that I'm not headstrong enough.
'Cus I end up having people step all over my head.
People who call themselves friends.

Now I know who my true friends are.
The ones who will always be there for me.
The ones who will always make sure I'm safe.

Thanks, Mal, Cheryl, Sam, Ting, Pauline.
2 more weeks then it's PLAYtime

Friday, August 14, 2009

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 15:07:56 GMT

I feel the life being sucked outta me.
Honestly, I really want to dig a hole for myself and wallow in self-pity and self-hate.
But then again, I posses the Sociological Imagination.
My personal problems are really not so personal at all.
'Cus its all related to the social structure.
We students feel like pulling our hair out 'cus there is so much competition going on.
And this competition is caused by the fact that people are our only natural resource.
So we are being pushed everyday to achieve the best.
Hahaha.
Omg, look I've studied ok.
But there's so much more
And I still feel so alone here 'cus everyone else is busy studying too.
I want to be back at camp with my girlfriends!

I don't want to go for that stupid thing tomorrow.
I don't want to waste my study time trying to make friends with dumbfucks.
Okay I know they're all smart, maybe even smarter than me.
I'm just not like them.
I'm not some academic over-achiever you know.
I don't want to be that.
I'm just an average girl, I study, I train and I love partying.
That's who I am.
So if you say you know me well enough, you'd know this isn't my cup of tea.

Stop dreaming, start studying.

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 14:44:54 GMT

I am the new NYP 100m women's champion
I really didn't see it coming 'cus it's only been my 2nd week since my 2 months layoff.
So yeah, it was a pleasant surprise.
Timing was a whole second off my pB, though.
That only means I've gotta work my ass off to get back in top form and ready for IVP.
Coach (Mr Tang) is back at training and I'm intending to go back after my exams.
And he's the reason why I'm going to continue training.
'Cause he's done so much for me not just as an athlete, but 'cause he's made me a better person.
Thanks, Coach, you're the best!

And thanks to my dear school friends for coming down to support me.
Couldn'tve done it without you guys.
Love you!

Right, so now I have to focus on studying for exams.
Ugh

Crash and burn, girl.

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 14:20:05 GMT

Hurdles didn't go down too well today.
I crashed at the 6th, grazed my knee and stuffed my ankle.
I guess hurdling just doesn't come like 2nd nature to me anymore.
3 years ago was a really long time.

Thank God the tests went alright, though.

Things with F, I really don't know.
I know I kinda said we should just be friends.
But you know how sometimes you just can't help your feelings?
Like you feel you have so much more to give and there's so much more you want.
Yeah oh well.

100m, 4x100m & 4x400m tomorrow.
It's gonna be a brand new day and it's gonna be my day.
'Cus I am the master of my race.

(Somehow I'm not totally convinced but yeah I need to make myself feel better.)

Goodbye, red rubber (or whatever the track is made of).

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 14:22:43 GMT

I've decided.
I'm closing this chapter of my life.
For good.
No more turning back.
Yes, I can still run when I want to.
But no more die-hard track fanatic.
'Cus I'm moving on
To the things in life that are more worthwhile than having a fractured foot.

So,

HELLO, FAB LIFE!